Waiting

Waiting, waiting and waiting.. that's our story these days..

In the meantime Monday we finally got the hay made that was cut a week ago and then it rained on it several times, I spent several hours out in the field raking,it was such a nice day and I enjoyed the diversion from my day to day duties. While dad and mom were in the field Dexter mowed the lawn and Morgan and Audra worked on the laundry.

And now the cherries are ripe the children picked and pitted about 5 quarts yesterday and today I need to see if I can somehow get the nice ripe ones at the top, like being put up in the skid steer bucket 😰

Falling in love..

 I don't plan on posting every other day, but I'm so excited.. yesterday we had a great meeting, visit and lunch with our birth mom, she's a very sweet,shy lady.. she expressed her desire to give us a most precious gift, her baby boy. She is so selfless in putting her baby's needs ahead of her own. The highlight of the visit was an ultrasound we got to be present.. I've had these thoughts on, what if he doesn't seem like mine? When will he feel like my son? I know that's crazy, nothing to worry about but.. maybe it's hormones 🤔... and the only reason I expose my unnecessary fears is so others can be comforted if they have those fears.. anyway what I want to say.. The moment we saw our baby boy on the ultrasound, the tears started to fall, and the bond began, he's our baby boy forever, whatever the outcome of his adoption,if it fails 😭 he's forever in our hearts..We need the prayers of all our friends known and unknown.. that God which passeth understanding will give us, our birth mom, and all involved, peace,courage and strength..

Arkansas bound!!

It's been a busy week.. Denver and Dexter got done with hay at midnight.. and at 7:15 this morning we were Arkansas bound.

 

We had a great trip so far, had a bit of a delay before we got to Kansas City.. we are looking forward to meeting our birth mom tomorrow,also very nervous, I brought her bread, granola and half moon pies.

Adoption is special:: imagine a child waiting for a package, every day she watches for the mail every day her tears fall as she is once again disappointed, around her others receive packages, some 2 at a time..she feels so forgotten and wonders why she is passed by.. one day her package finally arrives it is so extra special.. I know when I finally hold my baby in my arms I'll cry tears of joy, our baby will be so special..

Busy days

It's a great summer so far,only we sometimes meet ourselves coming back, and my memory.. it's not to be trusted, and I'm young! Yesterday was Quintana's CF check-up.. her and I spent quality mom-daughter time, driving the hour to the doctor, we made it by 4:17, I was feeling so good about being a few minutes early.. until I checked in.. the appointment was supposed to be at4:00 not 4:30😥.. she was seen and we went home again..it was a great visit Quintana gained a half pound since April and looks nice and healthy.. we have had enough not so encouraging visits we really are thankful to be told how good she's doing. Morgan had supper pretty much ready when we got back home and so Dexter had his birthday supper of taco salad and black forest cake and ice cream.
   Considering that the children and I harvested, washed and cut up 100 lb.of rhubarb, and I made Dexter a birthday cake before the doctor appointment, maybe I have an excuse 😉
   Dexter turned 11.. my baby boy.. he's really excited about not being the baby boy for long..he along with his three little sisters and Dad are Mom are very excited.. our baby boy is due in July.
  In March we decided to pursue adoption.. actually decided to call an agency..we also contacted an attorney that deals with Marshallese adoption..in April they called to say we're matched! Since then our dear Social worker has been doing great getting our home study done quickly!!